Posted by Anonymous on 2015/03/03 under Uncategorized I live in New York, a place with numerous amount of people and talking to someone or meeting someone new is simply to just speck up. Yet it being just that simple makes it that much harder. I have friends, close friend and acquaintances but all of them do not make me feel any less isolated. In fact they make me feel isolated! Strangers I can deal with, small talk, laughs and then BOOM your done, might never even see them again. With “friends” there is this attachment of this invisible rule book of how to be a friend and “be” anyone else. You have to act and do certain things and with that it’s like, what if you do something wrong and you don’t know or you dissapoint them. All of this makes me want to just be distant, not have hopes in friends or family. To just be alone, where my actions do not effect anyone. I want it to end sometimes…all of these feelings and worries. Like starting over or if there isn’t a “starting over” then to just let everything go.